Some songs are like opening a can of worms... 

The thought had occured to me that I needed to review my collection of songs for album #2. Many (10+) years ago I wrote two songs with my then fiance, very dark stuff about her engagement before me. Good songs, her lyrics my music but emotionally very unhealthy. So I mothballed them, leaving them untouched and on the shelf.

It's getting about time to dust these songs off and get them down. Good for my mental health? Probably not. Everything she wrote about is 100% against what I believe in. Just because a relationship is strained is no excuse for either party to be controlling or almost psycho... nor should people constantly try and recapture what is lost. Show back bone and walk away, don't ping pong.

Knowing what the songs are about and the history behind them, revisting is uncorking memories and opening a can of worms. To be blunt it makes me downright furious at everyone involved.

So I've done what I've always do; channel that anger into my music. The other weekend I layed the guts down of the first song entitled Anguish. That must be the most vicious, venomous, violent lead vocal I have ever done. Am glad no-one was in the room whilst I did it, would have scared people!

When the vocal was done I just felt completely and utterly emotionally drained, but it was worth it. That brought something out of me... but I think I'll need some time to shake it off. Not healthy at all.

Hold on to your hats... if the first two tracks are any indication then album #2 is going to be a corker.